So Cold in Baguio!

1.17.2013

Temperature has been hovering between 10 to 13 degrees Celsius for three days now and all I can ever think about is watch feel-good films (which I did, yesterday, with The Switch and Diary of a Wimpy Kid:Rodrick Rules) while on bed with thick blankets swaddling me.  Kaloka.  All.I.Can.Think.Of.  is FOOD!.  I should be running, I know, but the weather is perfect for hot choco and siopao (which I am eating later after my second lunch hihi)! Bummer this cold weather putting a damper on all my good intentions hehe.

I am reading "The Secret", by the way, which is in my Kindle for over a year now, unread, until this month, of course.  Sarap mangwindang ng book na ito.  It makes me believe I can win the lotto, lose weight without dieting, get everything I wish for.  Come to think of it, all of the things (way before I harbored negative vibes which I am slowly ridding of)I thought I can do, happened, just because I thought it would.  Case in point:  I told my cousins I am lucky in the scratch sweepstakes and true, I kept winning.  I believed I am lucky in exams and easily pass and top them even if I don't really study, and I do.  Tama nga yata yung motto ng mga bagets ngayon:"Tiwala".  And, I am starting that, too.  Of course, I have to go a long way to regaining my trust in myself, especially since I am not really really happy with my work situation and I am full of negative energy.  Oh, you wouldn't believe how much negativity there is in there.  I swear, it can power an atom bomb haha.  And oy, don't just think office lang ito, because we are talking here about an agency related to money.  I have read in Girl Talk how disgusted they were with the g.a.s they worked with.  Well, try mine, since it is the premiere g.a. that is zeroed in when it comes to the big C!  Honestly.  Friendship is disregarded (I can make a strong point with this) and ended, just because of plain greed.  I would love to say I want out, but I would like a nice fallback first, because I do need a steady job with pay that would provide for my needs and wants.  Which is why, tada, I am winning the lotto.  Positivity  lang yan pare! Once the universe realizes (and it is starting to, believe me) that I can do better things outside my agency (and it would be better for my heart and soul, too), it would give me a fallback so fulfilling I won't even think twice of leaving.



I would love this to be my mantra.  Sometimes, I think all the good intentions and mantras like this are pang-rich lang, because they have all the means to wear their passion.  Heck, I can't even travel, because my finances are going down (which will go up, of course, positivity hehe).  

I still have to find and wear my passion, because everyday, my passion is slowly being overtaken by jadedness.  Jaded at what I witness in the office. Too much selfishness that I see in the office is totally chipping in my soul. How can you explain a person you consider to be a good friend to go against you?  For no reason?  And take all opportunities that should be equally shared between you guys for herself (and her partner in crime)?  Just because she wants to put one over you. And just because she wants all the money.  And how can you explain her supposed partner-in-crime talking about a promotion and how he can easily get it if "gagapangin" (that's his word) nya.  And how can you explain a very good boss who provides for his staff, but some of his staff will withhold things for themselves?  And how can you explain to your child that there is no juice to drink in an outing because these special people hid it?  Kaloka lang.There are varying degrees of greed, but they are still plain greed.  

Sorry, just need to vent.  I would love to think of happy things, I really do.  

I had a fun day with a seminar we had with Sir Mike's group last November.  I chose to talk about my passion.  I mentioned about my family being my passion, which is true.  Especially my love, Adrian haha.  But my other passion which I recently discovered is blogging.  I remember years back looking for online diary sites where I can write and that is why I have Live Journal.  I never realized you can share your innermost thoughts and people will read and they can become your online friends. Plus, I can't believe you can earn pala.  Once I have my dream 48 hours a day (kailan kaya yun), I will discover all the secrets and make a living out of writing haha.

I included this blog once at the BC Bloggers Comment Exchange, but I want this to be private pala (although it is still available publicly haha). 

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