Too Tired After Exercise!

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I just about killed myself a few hours ago.  Running on guilt from all the fruitcake I ate (I swear, it was the best I have tasted.  Besides, it is free and shh...I am keeping it somewhere else, so the girls won't discover it), the work out I missed yesterday (after the workouts I missed the previous days!), and the Christmas food I ate (consisting of carbs and fats and I am in fat heaven lol.), I just need to bust my butt off.

My wishful thinking the other day was that I was going to do a 4 kilometer run on the treadmill (which takes me from 40 minutes to one hour depending on the speed) and eventually do a 6K  in an hour, 10 minutes on the Stepper and 5 minutes on this thing called...dang, I don't know its name...you go on all fours and push it (it's got two wheels, abs get a real workout equivalent to planking). I did that the other day, promising to do it again the next day (exercise gives you the exhiliration to promise yourself crazy things), failed, then did it again today, with the promise that I will do the whole gig every.single.day.  

I have been this way practically for the past seven years without making any breakthrough.  My weight is the same.  Which bothers me a lot.  Is my metabolism way too slow? Or I just eat way too much?

And I don't even like rice, ha?  I can live without rice and sweets probably, if I just don't see them haha. They are such big temptations.  I tend to graze, which ruins my workouts, plus I may be stressing out too much, which I have read somewhere (by Jillian, most probably)would cause weight gain, especially on my marshmallow belly area.

Come to think of it, I always had a marshmallow belly.  Even when I was single.  But I was super fit before I got married ha (with a little marshmallow puff lang).  I was doing one hour step workouts with one pound weights.  Tapos, when I was pregnant with the two girls, I was walking everyday for like ten rounds around Burnham Lake (around 30-40 minutes).  With Adrian, I was doing Yoga for Pregnant Women. And over the years, I have collected almost all Beach Body Workouts, and even did Turbo Fire (just for a while), with a dream to do Insanity sometime.

So, why am I stuck with zero weight loss and a body practically like Sharon's (Not hihi)?  (Weight gain pa nga, eh).  I tend to blame it on my age, pero siguro, I burn calories ever soooo slooooooowlyyyyyy.  I am stuck with slow metabolism.

My only hope may be the South Beach Diet.  I actually lost weight when I did it for two weeks last September.  I would have gotten more spectacular results had I not been in and out of being sick that month. I am so attempting to do it again next year, which starts in two days (Ha!).  All I really need is motivation, inspiration, plus the willingness to prepare my SBD food.  Wish me luck!

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